The thing about commitment is that it requires discipline, and I always felt I lacked that somehow. It may have come from a thing that my parents always told me growing up: that I was lazy. I seemed that no matter what I did, that would always hold me back.
I mean, I've done pretty well for myself, and after years of therapy I came to learn that I'm not really lazy, I get shit done. And now I got done with one of the biggest monkeys on my back, a big 'ol gorilla: I got my degree.
It didn't feel quite as good as I thought it would, but it was nice to share the moment with my family: my parents and sisters, and now even my wife and child. It's been a long road full of speed bumps, but with the help of basically everybody I love I was able to finish school.
Now though, I'm not really sure what to do. I know that having a family and a full time job that I like is plenty, but I feel I'm capable of more. A lot of things are going through my mind, and I even got a new powerful laptop that would serve basically any purpose I chose for it.
I'm not sure what am I gonna do yet, but I know that I would like to share more about this proccess, and that's how I come to commitment again. In my previous post I talked big about sharing what I'm doing with my photography, and I've done stuff since then but I didn't really share it a lot in here because of the additional work it takes besides just posting it on Instagram.
I think this is different though, this will take time and lots of thinking. I might be able to deliver, but I wouldn't trust me.